Slowly Phasing Out While Continue Bottoming

As a Fleetwood Mac's song goes: Players only love you when they are playing.

E has not responded my text from yesterday. I wonder if I would ever hear from him again. E has the beard and hairy body that I find extremely sexy. My cock gets hard just by touching his hairy chest. In the multiple times we slept together, he always sucked my cock to edge me to the limit before he jerked me off.

"I want to..." That's what he said to me when I asked him why he wants to suck me.

I  find that strange because he does not let me suck him. He said it's messy and yucky.  "Yucky?" I wondered in my mind but didn't think further. I did consider the possibility that he might be carry diseases or even HIV+. But since all we did was kissing, dry fucking and jerking each other off, I didn't think anything bad could happen.  I do (did?) enjoy kissing him. He even said that he had never kissed anybody like we did.  I found that hard to believe and yet I was foolish enough to take his word.

From the very beginning I've always had this feeling that he's a player. He never fucked me. Although one time when he tried to finger me and realized that I was really tight, he said, "I'm gonna hurt you.." hinting that his cock is quite big. Well, he never got to fuck me and I somehow knew that was never gonna happen anyway.

He texted me sexy, luring messages alone with shirtless selfie and pics of himself in underpants. For a while he even seemed smitten with me. And all of a sudden he vanished and appeared to loose interest totally.

I'm certainly not going to "beg" him to answer me. I think I'd just let it go. If one day he resurfaced, I'd take a deep breath and decide what I should do. He might still be able to charm me back to his hairy arms, I would know better that he is just a player.

Besides, I still have my fuck buddy M, who to my surprise sent me a picture of his impressive manhood last week. Unfortunately I was on my way to the city and couldn't meet him on his day off. It's been more than a month since I last saw him. I need his hard stiff cock deep inside me. I want to kiss him, taste him, ride him like there's no tomorrow.  M knows his tool and knows how to use it well. He kisses me, teases me, rims me and is patient to open up my tight hole with his wet hungry tongue. He knows it when I'm ready. He will then force his big cock, knowing that I'd enjoy the pain, slowly down my hole. He will change positions, penetrate me deeper and deeper, with gentle touches caressing my sweaty body. He will increase his speed, his stiff cock thrusts in and out of me, and collapses on top of me when he dump his hot juice inside me. Sometimes after he recovers a bit, he'd tell me to jerk myself off on top of his with his cock still rock hard in my ass. "Good boy, JJ. Good boy.." he'd say.

I know that one day M will also be unavailable. He might be involved in a steady relationship. He might move away or I might move away, etc. All good things come to and an. But meanwhile, I'll let him fuck me. I want him to fuck me. I want as many hot loads of his as I can get. Did I ever mention that he is a hairy Italian? Come to think of it, why would I need E if I still have M? For varieties I suppose..

Oh, and there's a hairy daddy who wants to give me a massage this coming Friday. Let's see how that goes..

But seriously, I'm at the point that I believe it's time to slow down and stop it all one day. I have a partner who loves me, who adores me and never intentionally hurts me. I should be grateful to have him in my life and be loyal to him. There's just too many players out there who will only think of you when they want to play. I've always tried to maintain certain regular, decent, friendship-like relationships with the men I meet. Somehow it's usually not what they are looking for. Over the years my skin has thicken. But finding out that these men basically don't want to have anything to do with me other than having sex still makes me feeling hurt.  And yet I keep giving myself these self inflicted wounds.

I know that day will come eventually. Hopefully before my double life got exposed. Hopefully before my partner found out that I've been cheating on him for so long. Hopefully before I contracted any disease. Hopefully before it's all too late and there's no return.

M, My Fuck Buddy or Maybe More

 "I'm yours.." I said to him.

M was on top of me, his cock thrusting in and out slowly. He never forgets to kiss me whenever there's a chance. I like him for that. He's not just fucking me; he is making love with me.

Before he penetrated me, he sucked and licked my cock and balls. His goatee rubbed again my sensitive skin when he rimmed my ass. It always made me moan. Tonight he face-fucked me again and I managed to take his long hard cock down my throat. I lied on my back with my head on the edge of the bed. He stood right above my head with his stiff cock hanging a few inches from my mouth. I knew what he wanted and I opened my mouth and let his pre-cum dripping cock enter my warm mouth. I took it in as deep as I could. I could taste his salty pre-cum. He moved my hands to his nipples. I squeezed them hard as he forced his cock deeper in my throat. He leaned forward and started to suck my cock, which at the same time his cock gagged me and stayed in my throat. It was the deepest I have ever had a cock down my throat. Even though it gagged me and I couldn't breath, I loved the experience. I wish M will do that more often and longer..

M entered me from behind as I was on my all four. He fucked me slowly to start and gave me time to get used to his massive manhood. I loved how he tried to kiss me every chance he could get. He laid his hairy chest on my bare back and kissed my left cheek. I turned my face, our mouth met and we kissed.. With his hard cock in my ass, his kiss made me even more horny.

Tonight M tried a new technic with me by placing a pillow under my lower back. He was on his knees and I was on my back with my butt mounted to his crotch. His cock penetrated me even deeper in this position. My hands were exploring, touching his solid body. I caressed his hairy stomach and sometimes I held his ass and pulled his body closer to mine. I wanted his rock hard cock deep inside me for as long as possible.

"You are beautiful, J.." he looked into my eyes while his cock moving in and out of my tight ass.

"I'm yours.." I said to him. And I meant it. He can have me whenever he desires..

"Thank you.." he replied with a touch of proud smile on his face.

He removed my socks, held my feet in his hands. He looked at me briefly as if to get my permission. I didn't reject, he proceed to put my toe into his mouth. His cock stiffened more in my ass. I never understood how it could turn certain people on, but in that moment I actually felt the connection..

There's nowhere else I'd want him to cum. When his breath became short, his face started to harden, I knew I soon would have his cum. He let out a long breath when he dumped his load in me. I was content and grateful that I met him.

He once said to me, "never knew you could have this so close to home, did you?"

I answered with a smile, only wishing I'd had met him earlier.. Much much earlier..

Keep getting fucked or not?

Your opinion appreciated:

I’ve been seeing this hairy fuck buddy for 5, 6 times in the past three months. At first he would contact me on his own. But recently it’s always I that had to get in touch first and we would fuck at his place. We always had a great time. He loves fucking me and he breeds me every time. He is always very passionate, very oral, very dominant in bed.

Here is something that bothers me: when I email him or text him for reasons other than hooking up, he usually doesn’t respond. (I know he has a boyfriend.) I feel I’m always the one asking to meet..

Should I keep contacting him when I need to get bred or should I start looking for somebody else?

Italian Rim Master

When I was attending FIT, there were several days in a week that I would have one or two hours break between classes. One day when I was sitting in the library and suddenly felt horny.  So I posted an ad on craigslist looking for someone to give me a blow job and there's this self-claimed "Italian Rim Master" guy replied my ad.  I was young and actually didn't understand the word "rim".  He sent a fuzzy pic of himself and it looked okay to me. Within an hour I was at his office.

It's the building that had a Starbucks on the ground floor near the Union Square. He opened the door and he was bigger than I thought.  He looked friendly enough and I went in.  It was a very small office and he appeared to be there all by himself with lots of fabric samples around. Without saying a word, he lead me to the inner room which had no window. He switched on the lamp above, closed the door, and started to unbutton my jeans.  He kneeled down before me, stuck his tongue out to receive my cock and slowly put my cock into his warm mouth. It was really nice and I decided to let him enjoy it.  After 5 minutes of blow job, he grabbed a triangle pillow on the side and told me to lie on it.

"Let me see your hole..." he said softly.

"I'm not gonna fuck you. Don't worry.." he added when he saw my hesitation.

I took off my jeans and shoes, and did what he said.

He was on his all four, put his face so close to my ass cheeks that I was embarrassed.  I heard him took a deep breath and let out a "hmmm" in enjoyment. Next thing I know was that he licked my hole! Geee..  I never knew that it would feel so good.. My cock got harder in response and I felt my pre-cum dripping. This Italian man certainly took his time eating my ass. He tongue-fucked me, kept licking deeper into my hole.  Once in a while he would take a break and light bit on my ass cheeks.  He would insert his wetted finger into my hole a few times as if to make way for his tongue. His beard rubbing my skin really turned me on.

I was holding onto the pillow tight, letting him literally eat my ass out. He seemed to be in a trance himself, sweating and exploring the deep hole of mine..

When he finally got tied being on his knees, he said, "Get up and sit on that chair."

I sat on the chair he pointed. My cock was stiff and wet.  I thought he would finally take care of my cock, but no. Instead, he lifted my legs in the air and buried his face into my ass again.  I had time so I just let him have his way. I had never experienced anything like that before and I loved it..

He started to stroke my cock while he was licking my ass and I tried to stop him.

"I'll cum real quite.." I warned him.

"Isn't that why you are here?" he said with a smirk and continue stroking my stiff cock.

"I'm really close..." I said to him as I couldn't hold it any longer..

He let my legs down and moved his mouth, licked with his tongue all the way from my hole, my balls, the root of my cock and along the way up to the tip of my cock.. His left hand index finger was finding its' way into my wet hole while his mouth swallowed my hard cock.  Before he could firmly closed his mouth around my cock, I shot my cum straight up.  He felt it and sealed his mouth quickly as if didn't want to waste a drop of my hot juice..

When I cock got soft, he stopped sucking me. He opened his mouth and showed the cum he collected there to me. Then he swallowed it right before my eyes.

He got up, found a towel somewhere and cleaned his own face. He went into the other room and let me get dressed.

He was already sitting at his desk working when I came out. He looked up, smiled, and said, "I like how your ass tastes. Come again soon.."

Hairy Daddy Neighbor Paid Me a Visit

A few days later after I gave my hairy daddy neighbor the blowjob, he showed up at my front door. Surprised to see him, I nervously looked around to see if anybody was looking.

"Can I come in?" he said.

"Oh, I'm sorry..  Sure.." I stepped back, welcomed him in and I showed him the living room.

We sat on the couch with him on the far right and I on the far left. The tension was exciting and at the same time I was worried what's happening.

"I saw your partner just went out." he said.

"Yes, he has a meeting in the city..  So, what's up?"

Hairy daddy looked at me for a while, wanted to say something but didn't. Then he leaned towards me, both of his hands went under my tank top, touching my abs and chest. I put my hands on his hairy arms but didn't push him away.

"I'm here to take care of you.." then he pulled down my pants.

"But I haven't sho.... " Before I could even finish my sentence, he already put my cock in his mouth.  It felt so good, I held on to the couch. His unshaved face rubbed my balls and thighs while he continued sucking me, the sensation was incredible. Hairy daddy could see that I was enjoying it, he smiled at me and put his fingers into my mouth. I held his hand and sucked on his fingers lustfully.

After a while, hairy daddy kept my cock in his mouth, pulled away his wet fingers and forced one into my ass. I moaned and opened my eyes wide, wondered what he had in mind. He was still dressed. I used my foot touching his crotch and, no surprise, he was rock hard.

"Take off your clothes.." I whispered.

Hairy daddy looked up at me, seemed not sure if he should.

"Let me just take care of you today.." he said.

"I want to see your hairy body.." I started to undress him.  He was reluctant to remove his clothes, but lust still won after all.

He stood naked in front of me, stroking his stiff cock slowly while his eyes looked directly into mine.

"Do you want me to fuck you?"

I didn't answer.

"Do you have condom? lube?"

I shaked my head, still looking at him. He probably could see in my eyes that I wanted him real bad.

"Guess we'll have to do it the old fashion way..." He then went down on me again, lifted my both legs and inserted his tongue into my asshole. He rimmed me for a while.  He wetted his finger with his own pre-cum and put it into my hole, as if to test if I was ready for the real thing.

After he rimmed me some more, he held his hard cock in his hand in front of my hole. "You're gonna feel it.." he said. Then he forced his cock head into my ass.

"Aww...." I couldn't help but it really hurt. I held on to his hips, asking him to pause.

"Shh... Just let it stay in there for a while.." hairy daddy said to me. His hands moved to my chest and played with my nipples.  I could feel his cock growing harder as it stretched my hole open. His cock was even bigger than I remembered.

Slowly he started to pinch my nipples. The pain excited me and my cock was leaking precum.  While I was feeling the pain on my nipples, hairy daddy, at the same time, little by little, pushed his cock inside of me. I had tears in my eyes when his cock finally went all the way in.

"That's it.. You did it, boy.." Then he started pounding me. First gently, then he went faster and more forceful. I wasn't sure if what I felt was pain or excitment, but I didn't want him to stop. The more I moaned, the faster he pounded my ass. The couch got pushed back a few inches from his actions.

"Can I come inside you, boy?" hairy daddy asked. His sweat dripping on my body.

"I want you to come inside me!" I begged.

Hairy daddy gave me a bright smile and pounded me even harder. A few minutes later, he closed his eyes, groaned through this teeth, his lips were shivering..  "ahh... yeah... " he yelled out and shot his hot cum in me.

With his cock still inside me, he collapsed on top of me.  His sweaty body covered mine, his armed wrapped around my head. I inhaled his manly body odor.  And I could feel that his cock was still throbbing in me.

When he caught his breath and got up from me, we felt something sticky on my abs. We realized that I was so excited that I had cum right before he lied top of me after he shot his load.  I didn't even need to stroke my cock or touch it..  I was that high!

"That's quite a load there.." Hairy daddy said to me with a smirk. He proceeded to lick and ate my cum off my abs.  Then, for the first time, he kissed me, with his mouth full of my own cum.

"Can we do this again?" Hairy daddy said to me after he put on his clothes and was ready to head to the door.

"You know where I live." I gave him a light kiss on his mouth.

Back to Hilton Gateway Hotel with Master Danny

The first time I was used by Master Danny was at the Hilton Gateway Hotel near the Newark Airport.  It's the best area for us to meet so we decided to re-visit the location for our second session.

The moment the elevator door closed, Master Danny dropped the black nylon bag on the floor and grabbed my crotch with his right hand forcefully. With his left hand holding my head, he covered my mouth with his and his tongue went in as deep as he could.

"Why did you make me wait for so long?" he said. Passionately, he kissed me till we reached our floor.

"Did you do what I told you to, boy?" Master Danny asked me once we were in the room.

I removed all my clothes, bend over and showed him the butt plug I had been wearing.

"Good. Now on your knees and hands behind your head." he ordered.

Master Danny tied my hands together and put ankle cuffs on me. The ankle cuffs were chained together, which made it difficult to walk. Then he pulled down his leather pants in front of my face, exposed his already growing cock with metal cock ring. Without a word, he inserted his cock into my mouth and I almost choked. I sucked his cock a long while. I didn't dare to spit out my master's pre-cum so I kept swallowing. After his cock was all hard and wet, he told me to lie on the edge of the bed with my face down.

He slapped my ass and started to pull out my butt plug slowly. I groaned as Master Danny finally managed to pull it all out. He spited on my hole and massaged it with his warm hand. Then I felt his face buried between my ass cheeks and his tongue penetrating my hole. Master Danny was eating my ass, it made me really high and my pre-cum wetted the white bed sheet.

Perhaps I was nervous, my hole apparently was still too tight. Master Danny worked it with various sizes of dildos, stretched it open till he believed my hole was ready for his stiff, hot cock. My eyes were watering and I almost cried out the moment when his cock's fat head entered my body. He lied on my back when his cock fully penetrated me. His two hands pinched my nipples and it distracted the pain caused by his cock entering me. He stayed like that for a while to let my hole get used to his rock hard cock. When he started fucking me,  I could feel his hairy chest rubbing my back. I loved that feeling.. I was making sound in lust that I never thought I could.

"You are making too much noise." Then he stuffed his sock into my mouth.

He continued to fuck me. Sometimes gentle, sometimes hard. We were both sweating even though the AC was quite strong. At some points I thought he was going to tear my hole apart.

To catch his own breath, Master Danny lied flat on the bed, removed the sock in my mouth and told me to suck his cock that was in my ass.  I did obediently.

When Master Danny told me to follow him to the bath room. I knew what's coming. He first pissed on my face. Then he told me to open my mouth and I drank the rest of my Master's piss. After I swallowed everything, he lowered himself and licked my face before he kissed me.

Back on the bed, he had me lie on my back, hands tied to the bed legs on each side. He squeezed my nipples before he put nipple clamps on them. My was semi-hard cock grew instantly and reached its full hardness. After he put the mouth gag on me, my Master licked my balls and sucked my cock.   Once in a while he would pull on my nipple clamp which caused me to moaned both in pain and pleasure. Suddenly I felt his finger entered my sore hole. My cock grew even harder as he fucked me using his fingers and I was getting close. He never stopped sucking me the whole time. I gasped and moaned loudly through the mouth gag. Finally I couldn't resist any longer and exlpoded in my master's mouth.

Master Danny sucked out each and every drop of my cum and made some sound in enjoyment. He then took away my mouth gag, sealed my mouth with his and unloaded all my cum he had kept in his mouth. I knew my master wanted me to do, so I swallowed my own cum..

Even though I was quite exhausted, he wasted no time, untied my hands and sat me down where he re-tied my hands behind the chair. My nipples were pulled down by the weight of the nipple clamp. They were very sensitive when he removed the nipple clamp. As if to ease my pain, my master sucked on my nipples, bit and chewed on them now and then. I moaned and my limp cock came back to life again. Master Danny's pre-cum drop on my leg in slow motion.

"You want your master's cock in your ass, boy? Then you better make it hard and wet." He said to me and stuffed his cock in my mouth.

He fucked my face and I tried my best not to hurt him with my teeth. I sucked and licked and tasted my master's meat with all my will. When his cock was so hard that I could see the bulging veins, he untied me from the chair and removed my ankle cuffs. He proceeded to lie on the bed with his stiff cock pointing at the ceiling and he gestured me to come to him.

"Sit on it, boy." he said loudly.

Master Danny wasn't wearing a condom, reluctantly I got on top of him and slowly let my hole swallowed my master's cock. After a while my tight hole got used to it and I started riding my master. There's nothing can compare with getting fucked raw..

"Yeah... fuck yourslef, boy..." His hands held on to my ass firmly, intended to stretch my hole open and penetrate me even deeper.

"Squeeze my nipples, boy..."

I did and felt his cock got even harder in my ass each time I pinched his nipples. I rode almost violently and was thinking I never wanted it to end.

"If you keep it up, I'm gonna shoot in your ass. Is that what you want, boy? Do you want your master's seed in your ass?"

"Yes, sir!" I groaned and moaned. My ass was hot and sore..

"What do you want, boy?" he stared at me and yelled.

"I want your cum, sir!"

"Where do you want your master's cum, boy?" he said, almost shouting.

"In my ass, SIR!" I managed to say it between breaths..

I was sitting on him hard and he lifted his ass higher, his stiff cock penetrated me real deep. Master Danny let out a loud sound, grabed my ass real tight and shot his hot cum deep and straight inside me. He shivered a few times while he continued to seed in my ass.

By then we were both totaly sweaty. With my master's cock still in my ass, I collapsed on top of him, my bare smooth body rubbing his manly hairy chest. He grabed my hair and put his tongue into my mouth. We kissed, tasted each other's breath. I sucked on his lower lip and tongue. I wanted to be his boy forever. I wanted my master to use me whenever he wants.

"Don't make me wait for this long again. You hear me, boy?" he slapped my ass with his right hand real hard and said. Then he wrapped his sweaty hard arms around me and gave me another long, deep kiss..

I miss B who loves to rim

I miss B a lot these days.  Due to the fact that a family member is staying with me at the moment, I basically can't get any action!

B loves to rim me. He always starts from licking, sucking my cock and my balls. When my cock is rock hard, he then moves his attention to my asshole. He inserts his tongue as deep as he can reach and he knows how much I enjoy it from my moanings..

I wish he could come over now and eat my ass.  And I will let him swallow my days-load in return..